What am
I doing? Really, what am I doing? Don’t put our trust so easily into people,
Stephane. You get a little glimmer of hope, and you fall right back in. You trust
again, you hope again, you believe it all again. Then what happens? Yep, you
get hurt and you find yourself right back from where you came.
Yesterday
I found myself back looking for a glimmer of hope again. I sat there, and I
listened, I hoped, and I believed. But I did not trust. I loved but I did not
trust. Love, my friends; love hopes all things, believes all things, bears all
things (1 Cor. 13:7) but nowhere does it say it “TRUST’S ALL THINGS”.
The
only time I need to trust, and the only one I need to trust, is Jesus Christ my
Lord. Man, yes all of mankind, is untrustworthy. Even me. Even you. Believe it
or not- we all are untrustworthy.
As I
left and headed home, I thought about what was spoken, what was discussed and
how, deep down in my soul, I loved him. It is true. I do, and there is nothing
wrong with that. But just because I love someone does not mean I have to trust
them. I love him, but that doesn’t mean I have to go and dive in head first, drowning
myself again. “Nope” I said to myself, “Not ever again.” (Yes, I talk to myself
because I truly think I am the only one who understands me- besides Jesus!)
If you
read my short post yesterday about boundaries, then you will have a little more
understanding of what I am about to say. {If you didn’t- Why not? It was pretty
good- you should go check it out. LOL!} Boundaries are needed, and this girls’
boundaries are going to be fortified! But if I keep trusting too easily, the
walls are going to crumble, and I am going to find myself right back from where
I just came.
Trust belongs
to the Lord, but man must prove trustworthy. As I thought back to all those
other times; all those other times of “I’m Sorry,” “I will change”, and that little
glimmer of hope would come in, I would step over the boundary and fall in head
first again. But not anymore. Now I understand- it is okay to love someone, but
in no way am I commanded to trust them. The only One to whom I am to trust is
Jesus Christ. Period.
My “gut”
is never wrong. It never has been- (I know- sounds arrogant, but it’s the truth)
The reason why I can say this with such confidence is because my “gut instinct”;
the feeling that I get in the pit of my stomach that something isn’t right-
that’s the Holy Spirit warning me of impending danger. Someone is going to get
hurt, and that someone is me. My “gut” is His way of communicating with me, and
it is the same way He communicates with you. Jesus tells us that the Holy Spirit
will come upon you and He will reside in you. Where does He reside? In our conscience.
It is His Throne. When the Holy Spirit shows us impending danger, and we do not
adhere to it; where do we end up? Right back from where we came- again. But not
anymore.
{{{{Let
me say this- there is nothing wrong with following your dreams, your goals, setting
boundaries and chasing after God for yourself. In fact, I encourage it! Just
take a moment to think about and ask God about your personal relationship with
Him. Where are you today with Him? Where is He in your life? Maybe He has been
trying to speak to you through your conscience, but you haven’t spent enough
time in His Word to recognize His voice? Wherever you are at today- let me
encourage you to put everything- EVERYTHING- in His hands. Your thoughts, your
hopes, desires, dreams, goals, and even decree’s- put them at His Cross and
believe me- we will find our purpose, and we will succeed. Jesus is our promise
of victory!}}}
Okay-
back to my real train of thought!
We have
to stop crossing our boundaries. The only way we can do that is by
understanding this simple principle God has given us. GOD IS LOVE
You
know God loves you, you know God desires only the best for you. You know it-
now you have to believe it, and you got to walk in it. As I pulled up into my
driveway it hit me- my eyes were opened, and it all made sense. God only wants
the best for me, so when I am faced with a decision between His will and my
emotions, all I have to do is ask Him- “Father, which is best for me?” Do you
know what He is always going to say? Yep, you guessed it- “His Will”. His will
is, always has been and always will be; the best for you. But unless you are in
His Word, praying and spending time with Him each day, you won’t know His Will
when He shows you.
So, as
I wake up today and get ready to face whatever I will face. I will fortify my
boundary with the word of God. Reminding me that love is good, but trust
belongs to the Lord.
“Trust
in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding, in
all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.” Proverbs
3:5-6 ESV
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